4/25/11

I went to Shannon's school today and withdrew her...Found out the she went to my parents house for Easter and stayed the night(kinda felt good about that). I spoke with her and told her to get her dad's address so I could send the paperwork. I'm mad at her now. I still miss her ...crazy emotional roller coaster..ugh!

Easter Day

This day is rough! I've scrubbed the house put the ham in the oven..what to do now..wonder what she is doing? wonder if she cares? Does Shannon have any idea that she broke my heart??? Do children realize the impact of there actions on others (parents)...got to get out of this funk..I've packed all of her stuff and put it into the closet. I'm taking care of her chinchilla.. I keep the door to her room open hoping that I will become numb to it when I walk by and She is not there anymore....

cont life without Shannon

well its day 4 and I haven't talked with her. Don't know if I can. My heart still hurts and everything I look at something it reminds me of her. Its so weird, it feels like I am morning a death. guess i kinda am. I am doing my usual and staying busy to avoid my feelings. Tomorrow is Easter..lets see how that goes.....it was hard not to get Easter stuff for her this year. I buy all the kids Easter every year since they were born....

life without Shannon

My sixteen daughter is running from life. She decided to leave Colorado and move back to Texas with her father. I don't think she realizes that when you run it follows you. i havent really talked with anyone since she left on Wednesday. It hurts too much. Just the thought of her being gone makes my heart break. Ether I'm crying, silent or mad and I dont want to take this out on anyone... i just feel hollow without her. I know she has to learn her life lessons but cant she just for once lesson to me!

just spoke to my x and have a meesting on Tuesday oh god help me..we are moving to colorado (12 hours away and this is not going to over well) I need some balls.. hopefully I grow a pair by Tuesday!

6/10/10

okay here i go into the world of blogging..My name is Sonya and I'm 36.
I live in Texas but, not for long. We are moving at the end of August to Colorado. When I say us I mean my daughters and husband.(Savannah,Meagan,Shannon and Brad)
This is for me to send into the Internet world and let it go. Kinda like write it down and burn it..via 2010..lol so if you read its okay with me but this is more for me than you! sry....
I just checked on my x and no new news..lol what did i expect. Him to man up because the court says he has too. who was i fooling with the thought of that..
If you follow me you will understand this I plan on putting my entire life on blog but not for the kids or friends to read just to get it out..
I cant afford therapy so this is my therapy blog... ;-P
Sonya